Quote of the day
“A problem will get heavier when the only one carrying it is you. Whatever your worry, it’s better out than in.” – Anonymous
I am grateful for:
The chance to be a mother to a wonderful wee boy, whose smile can light up the room.
My siblings, who’ve always got my back.
My own tenacity and resourcefulness that won’t allow me to give up.
What did I discover new about myself?
I realised that I have a tendency to keep things to myself and try to solve problems by myself.
Luckily, today showed me that it’s therapeutic and almost cathartic to share what’s bothering me with people who care. That even if they can’t do anything to really help, their support can bolster my fading strength.
It’s a beautiful feeling to know that I’m not really alone.
What was the best thing that happened to me today?
Sharing my woes with my siblings.
What or who made today unforgettable?
LS this morning, when he woke up, was very cuddly.
LS: Mam, you’re so squishy. (squeezes my belly). Your belly is so squishy!
Me (in denial): No! It’s hard.
LS: I don’t think sooooo. (squeezes again). It’s very squishy, mam!
Thanks, LS. You’re so good for my ego. 😉
3 amazing things that happened today
1. I think it’s pretty amazing that LS ended up not having to go to nursery because of how quickly he got sick. He definitely needed just a day in.
2. I shared my troubles with my siblings and that really helped bolster my courage.
3. I phoned Citizens Advice and was assured that I could get help. Now, I just need to make sure that I get there asap.
How much stress did I experience?
I was quite upset with my husband since he was supposed to take LS to nursery but wasn’t able to simply because LS’ only ski jalopette was soaking wet.
It was too cold for them to walk out without it.
On hindsight though, it was quite lucky that they didn’t go after all because LS woke up with a bit of a sniffle that progressed quite rapidly into full-blown coughing, which always made it difficult for him to breathe.
He went down for a nap and slept on my chest the entire time.
I ended up falling asleep too.
It wasn’t part of the plan. The plan was to work as usual. But clearly, I needed some sleep because it didn’t take me long to go down for a nap of my own.
And both LS and I didn’t wake up until about 4.30 PM.
Still, I felt exhausted when I woke up.
I really do need to sleep more but what can I do?
I also need to do bedtime, which has gone progressively later the older LS got.
Did I do something that was out my comfort zone?
Yes, I didn’t work as much as I wanted.
What can I do better tomorrow?
Spend more time with LS and make sure he gets better.