Quote of the day
“Expect positive things.” – John Earl Shoaff
I am grateful for:
The many opportunities open to me.
The universe working for me so that I may achieve all I desire.
My own ability to roll with the punches.
What did I discover new about myself?
I tend to tamp down on my excitement because I’m afraid of my own power. Even when I know that something big and good is going to happen, I hold back.
Not sure why I do that (because I love the drama?) but it changes now.
It’s time I live my truth.
Be more authentic than I’ve ever been.
It’s not a lie to say, in the face of all the drama in my life, that I’m excited because I know the future holds untold possibilities.
But I feel compelled to lie because people expect me to negative when things go wrong.
People expect me to worry.
And so I do.
Despite an inner knowing that this too shall come to pass, that a miracle is set to happen to me, that nothing really can detract me from my destiny because I am walking the path I’m meant to.
I’m in the midst of a deep and long winter that has lasted nearly the entire decade – the moment I started questioning my purpose and decided to start living in alignment with my own personal truth.
The signs keep coming that this will soon end.
Not just from the outside but from the inside.
My knowing is getting stronger.
As are my passions.
It’s time to set myself free and to live free.
I am ready.
What was the best thing that happened to me today?
Our family pre-sleep play time.
What or who made today unforgettable?
The numbers keep coming.
I mentioned it yesterday, remember?
3 amazing things that happened today
Me: “I’m sad.”
LS (looks worried): “Why, mam?”
Me: “I need a lot of money and I don’t know where to get it. What do you think I should do?”
LS: “Don’t be sad, mam. I have a lot of money. I’ll give you some.”
LS (starts digging in his toy kitchen): “Here you go.”
He gave me play money.
2. LS again:
Me: “LS, can I get another cuddle please?”
LS: “Okay. But then it’s enough.”
Me: “Why is it enough??!”
LS: “Because you’re really happy now and I love you.”
3. I fell asleep before LS. Again. I think he fell asleep afterwards because when I woke up in the morning, he was asleep beside me. That’s good..right?
How much stress did I experience?
A little bit more than what I wanted.
I still haven’t been able to shake off the tendency to accept that I deserve the good things coming way and that there are many many good things coming my way.
Did I do something that was out my comfort zone?
Yes, I applied for a job via Facebook.
What can I do better tomorrow?
Push farther than I have today.