Quote of the day
“Don’t wish it was easier wish you were better. Don’t wish for less problems wish for more skills. Don’t wish for less challenge wish for more wisdom.” – Jim Rohn
I am grateful for:
This whole decade of winter.
I’ve been living in the midst of thick icy fog for many years now and it’s only now beginning to dissipate.
But, as the end of this winter draws to a close, the darkness gathers.
And I sit here, in front of my laptop, with my heart crying out in fear as I desperately ward off the fear clawing at my throat.
This winter is ending. But not without a fight.
And I am supremely grateful for all that I’ve experienced all that I’ve become prior to this moment.
Because despite the fear, I move forward.
Despite the fear, I fight.
To paraphrase Jim Rohn, this is my winter and I’m going to forge right past it. Soon you’ll see me waving as spring dawns. Or frozen on the side because I’m not coming back.
I’ll see this through and pay the price to get to the other side.
This is a promise.
What did I discover new about myself?
Whilst I’m terrified of what could happen should I fail and also being a proper drama queen (just ask my husband!) for the same reason, secretly I feel invigorated.
I suppose you could say I’m a masochist and relish my ability to triumph over challenges.
I also remember praying before that I be allowed to become a light in the darkness.
And the Laws of Attraction and Manifestation were clearly brought into play.
The darkness looms.
And I reckon it will get darker a little bit longer.
So, my message to myself: “Burn brighter, fiercer. Cut through this darkness. Let your light shine.”
What was the best thing that happened to me today?
Diving deep and discovering my reasons.
And they are strong.
What or who made today unforgettable?
LS of course:
LS: Mam, thank you very much for this dinner. It’s really tasty.
Me: Really??? Did you like it?
LS: Yes! It’s really tasty. And yucky!
3 amazing things that happened today
1. A 1212 and 1313 signal.
2. The cafe close to LS’ nursery was shut. I won’t discuss why this was significant and amazing, just that it is.
3. I discovered exactly what 1919 meant: “Angel Number 1919 may be suggesting that aspects of your life are coming to a close and/or an important phase or cycle is coming to an end. Trust that this is happening for very karmic reasons which will become evident in the very near future. This is preparing you to begin a wonderful new life and lifestyle that will see all fall into place for you in the most positive ways. These endings are clearing the way for you to fully pursue your life purpose as your soul dictates. Trust that all the information, guidance and assistance you will need along your path will be supplied by the angels and Universal Energies.
Angel Number 1919 is a message from your angels that a cycle or phase is coming to an end, making way for ‘new’ to begin. Do not look upon these endings as a ‘loss’, but rather as a new beginning, opportunity or adventure. One door is closing behind you as another opens in front of you, and your angels ask that you stay positive and focused as the Universe sets you in perfect alignment with your life purpose and soul mission.”
How much stress did I experience?
A lot – as I came face to face with a reality I didn’t even envision.
I found myself needing to be alone and closeted in the master’s bedroom for an hour or so.
Crying was cathartic and eventually, gave me the courage to soldier on.
Keep going, Jade.
Burn as brightly as any star.
Chin up and shore up your courage.
It will be over soon.
Did I do something that was out my comfort zone?
I told a friend I’d met online a bit of the problem. And this is definitely out of my comfort zone because I’m very private about these things.
I painfully considered selling my blog.
What can I do better tomorrow?
Focus on what I need to do.
Take massive action.